Another bank holiday monday

Another bank holiday Monday

By bonnie meekums

It was a typical bank holiday Monday; damp, drizzly and overcast.  But the four of us were determined to make it to the coast. Ginger, whose hair was black, had just passed his test and offered to let me ride pillion. Sensing that he was hoping his magnanimous gesture would make be grateful, I resolved not to hold his waist, no matter how scared I felt.  Sandy, who really was ginger, was still learning, and so Rachel had to cadge a lift from her Dad, persuading him that he really should call in on his uncle tony in Broadstairs.  We all arranged to meet at a pub by the harbour in Whitstable, for 12 noon.

The journey down was torture.  The A2 was busy, which gave Ginger the opportunity to show off his moves, swerving in and out of the traffic while my arms ached from holding on behind me.  When we eventually arrived I dismounted, shivering with cold and fear, and made for the bar.  I eagerly gulped a pint of beer, and even the obligatory oysters slid down a treat.

The four of us had been friends for about three years, which as 16 ½ felt like an age.  We had met at a church youth club which, in 1965, was considered hip.  The rector gave his young curates free rein to be creative.  Before long, we had painted the crypt black, the vast church had had part of its high roof converted into offices and a coffee bar, and services included guitar music and drama performances on a regular basis.  The curates, Geoff and Mike, encouraged us to think deeply about the issues of the day, discussing abortion and mixed marriage in grave tones while sipping instant coffee made with boiled milk.

I remember feeling a sense of bonhomie as the beer slid into my stomach, and the grey day seemed to brighten a little.  Sandy broke into my reverie:  ‘Holy shit!’ Rachel immediately chided him for blaspheming.  ‘What?’ I asked, wondering what could have moved a regular communicant like Sandy to swear so spectacularly.  We all followed his eyes.  There, across the crowded bar, we could clearly see Geoff and Mike, oblivious to our presence in the same room.  They were sitting side by side, both men looking downwards. What made this unusual for the day, was not the pints on the table in front of two vicars – we had shared many a pint in the Mitre after church –  but the fact that Geoff had his hand resting delicately on Mike’s thigh.

‘I think I’m gonna throw up’, said Ginger, his cheeks flushing.  The hairs on the back of my neck bristled, but no words would come out of my mouth.  All I knew was that we had intruded, unwittingly, on a moment that was not meant to be shared with others.  Sandy beat his pint onto the table and declared ‘I’m leaving’.  ‘No you’re not’, corrected Rachel.  ‘I think we should go over and say hello’.  ‘What, you mean pretend we haven’t just seen the two curates from our church being pooftas in a bar in Whitstable, thinking cos they are bloody miles away from Woolwich they won’t get found out?’  Ginger spluttered, his voice cracking.  For an instant, I saw the same look in his face I had seen in Mike and Geoff’s, which bewildered me even more.  I wished I could say something to ease the tension but once again Sandy broke into my silence: ‘I agree with Rachel’. ‘You poor, hen pecked sod’, said Ginger, spitting beer through clenched teeth.  I began to wonder whether I could cadge a lift back with Rachel’s Dad.  ‘So what are you saying, Sandy?’  I asked, to detract from Ginger’s venom.  ‘I think we should go over there.  Say hi.’  ‘I can’t believe I am hearing this’, Ginger said, shaking his head.  The last thing I wanted was to side with Ginger, so I pasted a smile on my face, looked straight at Sandy then at Rachel, and said ‘let’s go over, then.’  We left Ginger fuming into his beer.

The two men were by now in earnest conversation and Mike was the first to look up as we approached.  He forced a smile onto his face.  ‘Hi, where’s Ginger?’  ‘Oh, he’s over there,’ I replied, vaguely.  ‘Fancy seeing you lot here’, offered Mike, a tinge of sadness in his voice but without embarrassment.  I ventured a question, trying to sound casual: ‘We thought it would be nice to hit the coast, though the weather is miserable. Why are you two hiding away here, then?’  I pulled up a stool, as Mike looked imploringly at Geoff.  ‘It’s OK’, Geoff said tenderly, ‘I’ll tell them.’   And then, looking at us with an air of authority: ‘But first, tell that hot-headed Ginger to join us, will you?’  I looked at Rachel, who nodded and swiftly made her way across the sticky floor towards her boyfriend.  I could see a brief exchange of words, then Ginger kicked back his stool, picked up his drink and followed her like an obedient puppy to join the family.

When we had all assembled, Geoff breathed deeply, twice, then in a measured tone he told us:  ‘I didn’t expect to see you four today, but I am glad now that I have.  I came here with Geoff because there is something I needed to tell him.’  Ginger muttered something inaudible, Rachel pressed her foot up against his, and Sandy coughed.  ‘I’m afraid I won’t be with you much longer.’  ‘Well, I can’t say I’m surprised,’ blurted Ginger.  Geoff looked down, and for a moment I wondered if he would say any more.  But then he looked hp, searching for Mike’s eyes.  Mike nodded his support, and Geoff turned back to us.  ‘I’m dying,’ he said simply.  I felt a thud in my chest, my vision went red, and the ground became remote.  I gripped the table, and looked at Rachel, whose eyes held the terror I felt. Then I looked at Sandy, holding his head in his hands.  But it was Ginger who lunged and fell at Geoff’s feet, sobbing like a baby, his head on Geoff’s knee.  Geoff gently stroked Ginger’s thick black mane.  ‘It’s alright son, I know.  I did that too, when I found out.’


March 2011




By Bonnie Meekums

September 2012

Martha dipped the sponge once more into the sour wine and poppy mixture in its earthenware container to her right.  Its blood red stained her clothing as she lifted it up to her lord’s lips, now deathly white.  His eyes opened a crack, as he felt the welcome moisture of spent wine and tasted the pain relieving properties of its hidden drug, a cruel reminder of more hedonistic days.  Now, all he wanted was for it to be over.  His own frail frame hung heavy on the nails thrust through each palm, and through his feet.  Searing pain.  He lifted himself once more, fighting against asphyxia, unable to give up breathing despite his mantra:  This will not last forever.  All hope was lost.  The woman he had called his own was, he knew, performing a last act of love.  He could see, through his own mist, her tears, her body wracked with convulsions mirroring his own.  One flesh, one body.  Everyone had been speculating for years about him and Mary Magdelene.  His secret might have been taken to the grave but for his one dear love’s last devotion – that, and her swollen belly which would soon become apparent even to the most disinterested eye.  His physical pain intensified at the thought that he would no longer be able to protect her from the wrath of the masses.

This will not last forever.  He was growing weaker, and welcomed it.  Soon, the pain would not be felt.  Again, he doubted himself.  Had he imagined himself to be the Son, the Chosen One?  Were the miracles he had performed just hysteria?  Would this be oblivion?  He no longer cared.  Just.  Let.  This.  Be.  Over.  He could hear her mother chiding her:  ‘Come, child.  You have done all you can.  It is in god’s hands now.  You must think of the living, and the quickening.’

‘No, mother.  God will protect me.  I will stay with him, until I am sure he can hear and see and feel me no more.’  Her gentle reproach silenced the older woman, for she knew in her heart her words were useless.  She knew that her daughter’s love was immutable.  But as a mother, she knew she would not sleep unless she had tried to be the voice of reason.

Martha turned towards a commotion she could hear behind her.  A tall and powerful man was pushing his way through the crowd, to muted protests.  Her heart beat its way into her throat, lodging there to stop all sound from escaping.  ‘Make way, make way!’  The man’s goliath-like frame and deep, sonorous voice parted the crowd like the seas of Galilee, and there he stood before her, his eyes piercing hers and his torso blotting out both light and the crucified figure behind him.  Martha froze as Judas addressed her directly.  ‘I have come to claim my wife.’  The crowd gasped, as one voice.  Some of them had known she had a lover, but this man, who had so recently received his 30 pieces of silver?  Then, more softly so that only she and her mother could hear:  ‘I have wealth, my Lady.  I promise to take care of you and your unborn child.  I could see the way things were heading, and I have loved you from afar these past two years.  I know you love another, but I would not allow you to go to ruin along with him.  Please believe me when I say I did this for you.  In time, I hope you will learn to love me just a little.  Your child will be Iscariot, and will want for nothing.  Only, come now, without delay, before the crowd becomes restless.’

Martha looked beseechingly at her mother, who almost imperceptibly nodded her assent.  Then she moved to the right of Judas, so that she could look one more time upon her one true love, hoping for a sign from the God they had worshipped with their bodies.  His eyes opened just a fraction, closed, opened again, and closed one last time.  Then his muscle tone relaxed, his breathing became noisy and irregular.  Martha looked up at Judas.  She hated him right now more than anyone in the world. But she had seen the sign – her Lord had given his blessing.  She knew now that she must try harder than ever to be like him, to love and forgive her enemies.  It would be a long, hard, lonely road, just as he had warned in his many parables.

Martha felt a quickening in her belly, like a fish turning in water.  It was time.  Everything grew misty and far away.  She dropped her eyes, turned away from the cross, and walked.

Midnight at the oasis

Midnight at the oasis

By Bonnie Meekums

August 2012

Vera leaned her back against the caravan window, listening to the muffled sounds of laughter, gossip and music coming from next door.  She was relieved to be alone.  Earlier, she had mistakenly taken Michelle at her word when she tapped on the window and suggested Vera  ‘come round for a drink.’  She had forgotten that Michelle was a boozer, already pissed at 7 pm.  Her generosity was not shared by the others in her party, and when Vera walked through the gage she could sense it had been the wrong move. But it was too late.  She decided to brazen it out, accepted a cold beer and made her excuses as soon as the BBQ was ready.

Vera was named after Vera Lynn, the only girl in her class to bear such an old-fashioned name.  All her life she had known she was an outsider, destined to be beyond the gate, not within.  Never part of the ‘in’ crowd for long.  Oh, she had had her moments.  Until sexy Sam had come on the scene, flashing her size 32A breasts at the slightest provocation, she had been the only woman in an otherwise all-male set in her first year at university.  Years later, she heard that Sam was a Professor in charge of her own lab.  Sam had always known what she wanted and where she was going.  Unlike Vera.

She looked up, at a perfect August sunset.  Red sky at night.  Vera thought back to the reasons why she had come here.  The red sky, heralding a good day tomorrow, seemed to mock her.  Her caravan was her friend.  It had seen her trough a messy divorce, new love and new birth – ad now, it was here for her in her older age, seeing her into far less optimistic territory.  She felt a pang of guilt in the pit of her stomach, and an impulse to run.  But where to?  Visiting hours at the home where she had left David just a few hours ago were strictly controlled.  Even if she had run to him, he would have looked at her with confusion.  She found herself yearning for the days when he had long, flowing locks, taught stomach muscles, tight buttocks and an insatiable lust for her nubile body.  Now, he looked down, and drooled.  But somewhere, in the midst of it all, he was still her David.

Vera remembered their honeymoon, when they had danced together barefoot in the sand at midnight, Maria Muldaur’s voice playing in the distance, as she sung Midnight at the Oasis.  David’s strong hands had grasped her, one on her back pressing into her with a burning passion, the other guiding her steps through her right hand.  She could feel his hot body close up against her in that sultry Mediterranean night, his breath on her neck as he whispered words that even now made her blush.

In an instant, she knew what she must do.  Vera and David must dance.  There was no time to waste.  Sod visiting hours.  If she could pack up quickly, she could be at the home in two hours.  That would be midnight.  With her heart pounding like a young girl in the first flush of love, she started her car engine and turned on the radio to catch the opening song of Oldies Request Night.  She smiled knowingly as the DJ readout the first dedication.  ‘David wants Vera to hear this one.  He says you will know why.’  Vera’s eyes misted up as she heard Maria Muldaur’s voice.  Her body began to sway, gently, as she drove fast down the dark, familiar country lanes.  She was back on the beach in 1974, dancing with David.

Through the mist, she could see diffuse lights up ahead, growing rapidly brighter.  Vera jolted back from her reverie and slammed on her brakes as the truck loomed into sharp focus.  Then, there was a piercing noise and a searing, white pain hit her whole body.

Early the next day, the carers were pleasantly surprised to see David stand up out of his chair, his whole body erect as he clasped an invisible partner.  Humming a tune, he danced effortlessly across the floor.  There was a glint in his eye as he looked towards them and confided: ‘She’s back.  Maria Muldaur.  Don’t tell Vera.’


Break one

Break One

By Bonnie Meekums

11 June 2012

‘D’you want one?’  A hand appeared in front of Nell’s eyes, holding a packet of B&H.

‘No thanks.  I don’t.  Thanks, anyway.’  Nell glanced up, aware that to continue gazing at her shoe would attract greater attention.  She knew that just being here, not smoking, left her open to questions.  She looked around.  There was only this smoking shelter.  Across the grass, she could see a wooden picnic table that, in warmer, dryer weather might offer an attractive alternative.  She shifted from one foot to the other.  Nell didn’t want to be here, but neither did she want to be back inside right now.  For six months, since leaving behind the theatre and the philandering love of her life, she had managed an anonymous lifestyle, working on the make-up counter in a large department store.  Now, for some unknown reason, this woman with the cigarettes was being nice to her.  Nell wanted to sink, slowly, into the earth.

‘You that lady with the lipstick?’  Oh god, no.  Now what?  Nell breathed in hard, shoving her hands in her dress pockets so that her shoulders raised against an imaginary sudden chill.  ‘Er – yes.  I do the make-overs.’ Damn! What in heaven induced her to give so much away?  Next she’ll be asking me where I trained.

‘Maaar-vlus,’ enthused the woman, taking a satisfied, extra-long drag on her cigarette, a smile slowly creeping across her lips.  ‘Where d’you learn to do that, then?’

Nell stood, staring straight ahead.  Oh, for pity’s sake, why not tell her?  ‘I was a make-up artist.  In the theatre.’ She replied, as blandly as she could.  ‘Oooh, wonderful!  I’d love to do summit like that.  Ow d’you get into that, then?  I bet you ‘ave ta be very clever. You got A levels, then?’

‘Yes, some,’ Answered Nell, vaguely.  She looked at her watch, then at the woman’s cigarette.  A long trail of ash hung off the end.  It had been 10 minutes.  She would have to go in soon.  She turned to her accidental companion, facing her for the first time.  ‘Look, would you mind if you don’t tell anyone I didn’t smoke out here?  You see, sometimes I just get so hot in there, under all those lights all day, doing people’s make-up.  I just need a bit of air.’

‘I know, love.  We all need a break sometimes.  Don’t worry.  Mum’s the word, ducks.’  And with that, she patted her cigarette on the grille, and dropped it into the specially provided bin.

They walked silently through the doors and onto the back stairs, their footfall echoing up five flights. Neither of them seemed in a hurry to get back to her station.  This time it was the older woman who looked straight ahead of her as she spoke: ‘I’ve seen you, making people up to look like film stars.  Whoever or whatever you left behind in that theatre, it’s their bloody loss, love, and you can share an imaginary fag with me any time you want to get away from the bright lights and the heat.  Name’s Mags.  See y’around.’

And with that, she ran down to the basement.  Kicthenware.  Nell now knew where to get a B&H, real or imaginary, and a listening ear.  Maybe anonymity wasn’t all it as cracked up to be.





By Bonnie Meekums

I lay in the darkness, the sound of my breathing like crashing waves.  Chapeltown was in silence since the events of the day.  I felt a million miles away from home.  Mum would be worried by now.  I felt a pang of guilty panic knot in my belly.  I knew what I was about to do broke all the rules, especially my Mum’s.  She had tried to bring up her six boys to be good Methodists.  So far, she hadn’t succeeded with any one of us.  Apart from Winston that is.  And he was dead.

The ginnel between two shops into which i had jammed myself was so tight I had to lie half on my side.  The rifle was aimed.  I was ready.  I shifted ever so slightly and my back made contact with the cold, dank wall.  I shivered, and almost lost my nerve.  But then I thought of our Winston.  16 years old, never been in trouble with the police.  God fearing, the stupid pratt.  Never taken so much as a quick cough on weed.  Never shagged a girl despite getting a boner every time he looked at that pretty girl with the even brown skin, big black eyes and pert little breasts who always served him on his frequent trips to the supermarket.  We used to tease him for it, poor sod.  But then we never saw what was coming, did we?  Shot down by the fucking boys in blue before he even got up the nerve to ask her out.  Wrong place, wrong time, wrong skin colour.  Those stupid bastards wouldn’t be able to tell Nelson Mandela from Malcolm X if they came out with neon name badges on.

How long will I have to wait, I wondered.  I dared not light up until they came into view.  Then I would do it, to draw them nearer.  I mentally rehearsed my plan.  Aim for the balls on one copper, then try for as many as I can take out.  Assuming I get them before they get me, hide the rifle in the ginnel until I can get it into the canal.  Run home and be sitting in my mother’s kitchen drinking tea, with my A level books open before their mates come knocking house to house.

A car door shut, startling me out of my reverie.  Footsteps.  Shall I light up?  It could be a plain cop car.  I hadn’t thought of that.  I peered at the form approaching.  Wearing a hoody.  Aha!  A disguise, the cunning bastards!  Judging by the size of him, wearing a bullet-proof vest underneath.  Just one of them.  Perfect.  I drew a breath, and lit up.  His head turned in my direction.  He walked towards me, his footsteps ringing out on the Yorkshire stone pavement.  I cocked the trigger.  Then he called my name.  ‘Malcolm!’  My brain turned to jelly.  How the fuck did this copper know my name?  Who had rumbled me?  No-one knew.  I had told no-one.  Shit!  It was my uncle Moses, out looking for me.  My cover was blown.  I let out a regretful sigh, as I realised there was nothing for it.  I would have to show myself, and leave the rifle as far down the ginnel as possible.  I shifted upright and threw the rifle backwards as I emerged to the left of the opening.

The next bit happened in slo-mo.  Before the rifle hit the ground, I remembered I’d left the trigger cocked.  A thumping in my ears, I shouted to uncle Moses to get away.  But he, being the loving, forgiving pastor he was, moved closer.  The bullet whistled as it travelled straight for his knees.  I heard the sound of snapping bone as his head hit the concrete.  I rushed up to him and shook him, tears now streaming down my cheeks.  My voice was lost to me.  I cradled my uncle’s head against my chest and a warm, sticky liquid oozed onto my hands.  Time stood still.  I felt numb.  I thought of Winston.  This wasn’t meant to happen, brother.  It was meant to be for you.  I thought of my mother.  Saw her stoical, pained face.  My chest hurt, and I clutched my uncle’s body closer to me.  Blue lights flashed in the distance.  As two uniformed police officers walked towards me, I carefully lay Moses down on the cold concrete, took off my jacket, and covered him up.  Then I stood up, faced them, and held out my bloodied wrists.


A young girl

A young girl

By Bonnie Meekums


One gnarled hand reached across, her body listing as she grabbed the other wrist and brought it forward to hold her spoon.  Another battle to eat.  Was it worth it?  Why not simply stop eating?  How long would it take to die?

But then there was her daughter.  She couldn’t do that to her.  Flo’s toes pointed upward, as if reaching for her thoughts, defying the stasis to which she was condemned.

Sandy was late again.  She had promised she would be here, to help. Mustn’t be selfish, though.  There was bound to be a reason.

The door opened.  Resentment forgotten, Flo’s face lit up.  Sandy had seen Flo first and watched as Flo’s face showed all her stories of worry, laughter and tears, transformed in the instant she beheld her daughter and was 40 again, welcoming her family home.

Sandy kissed her mother, gently touching Flo’s newly set hair.  Flo stifled her inclination to chide her daughter: that cost me five quid!  I’m not made of money, you know!

Instead, Flo watched as her daughter settled into the hard seat she had brought with her from along the corridor.  I wonder what she has brought for me today?  Sandy produced a photograph from her capacious handbag and handed it to her mother.  Flo’s hands trembled a little more than usual as she looked through hazy eyes, at the young girl sitting on the hillside with her beau.  Oh George, if you could see me now.  I bet you never thought I’d come to this.

‘Eat your pudding, Mum.  It’s getting cold’.  Flo obediently lifted a piece of pie to her mouth.  Damn this pie, it’s always falling to bits.  She dabbed at her mouth, just too late, with the tissue she clenched in her one good fist.

Later, as she negotiated her way to the bathroom like a novice on a rope bridge, Flo tried to tell her daughter the story of the photograph, sensing the urgent need to tell her all there was to tell about this man, her father.  As she opened her mouth to speak, Sandy wrenched her back to reality:  ‘don’t talk, Mum. Concentrate on walking’.


Old friends and perfume

Old friends and perfume

Half a century

Of tea and toast

Invisible and indivisible bond

That knows no politics


Or wealth

You still make do

And mend

Like the Plumstead girl

You are

Though you have

Both swimming pool

And tennis court

And live on the other side

Of the world

We slot back in

Like keys in well-oiled locks

Remembering the past

Designing our futures

Speech without breaks

As if we might

Run out of air

Joints creak

And I repeat myself

As we plan a class reunion

And wonder who will come

Some mothers die young

And so we cling

Our conversation flowing

And flipping

From laptops

To perfume

As we drink tea

And eat toast


Hidden deleted

Hidden deleted

By Bonnie Meekums


On Christmas Day

I send a merry Christmas text

To family and friends

Scroll through my phone

And there you are

Your number, name, address

And birthday

Stubbornly hidden


Like the voicemails I came home to

The pictures I still hold

Inside my head

The film plays on

Where you are young

Vibrant, inquiring



My fingers pause

In that made-up moment

Of green buttons pressed

And news imparted

Troubles shared

And halved

But sensibly

I press delete

And you are gone




Those dark satanic mills – undated

Those dark satanic mills

By Bonnie Meekums


Where are they now

Those bright young souls

Whose chatter filled the air

Whose bodies spilled onto the streets

When the whistle blew?

Friendships sealed with waves and kisses

As they single filed

Towards the bus

With heavy limbs and tired eyes

And a spring in their step

To take them home

For now, the mill stands empty

The deafening looms now


And lights that once shone all night long

Replaced by blackness

No blue plaque here

To mark their lives, their love, their laughter

Their hopes and tears

Only our memories

Fading fast

Last chance saloon

Sally sat poised on a high bar stool, her third cocktail in her right hand.  No point in staying sober tonight.  She looked around her at the odd mix of people, thrown together by a confluence of natural disaster and human design.

Two men in their thirties sat playing cards at a low table, each sitting forwards as if ready for action.  They looked as if they had passed time this way many times.  One wore a light sweater with the sleeves pushed up to expose dark hairs on his forearms.  The other wore an open checked shirt over a simple white T, suggesting downplayed affluence.  Their short haircuts betrayed them as soldiers.  Army medics, Sally guessed.

In a corner, one portly man leaned against a wall with a glass of whiskey in one hand and a kindle in the other.  Sally wondered what he was reading.  A novel?  Or government documents, perhaps?

She had got the call just 12 hours ago.  Given two hours to pack her most needed possessions and forbidden to say good-bye to anyone, she had made her way shaking and tearful to the airport.  She had been warned that airport security would be even slower than usual, and instructed to arrive several hours before her flight.  A ticket would be waiting for her.

The flight took off at 4 pm, just as it was beginning to get dark on the ground, but as they rose above the clouds heading North, the sun lit up the sky to her left, red blood rising to orange, then blue.  The flight from Manchester to Edinburgh was all too short, and soon they descended into blackness.  An anonymous man met her at Edinburgh airport, with a placard bearing her name.  Sally noticed that she was the only one being met, and slowly it dawned on her that her fellow travellers were innocent of the fate that awaited them.

They drove silently through the dark, foreboding Scottish countryside for what seemed hours.  Hills and then mountains loomed like giants, obscuring the moon.  Her eyes smarted, but Sally resisted sleep.  Finally, the car stopped, her door opened, and she emerged to see her small case before her.  In an instant, the man who had just saved her life was gone, presumably to pick up more travellers.  She hoped she would see him again, safe and sound, this angel of the night.

It did not take Sally long to work out why she had been chosen.  They must have started with lists of people who excelled in areas that might be useful for the building of a post-apocalyptic Britain.  Team GB winners, people on the New Years Honours lists and so on.  She had been awarded the MBE for services to art therapy in the previous year’s Honours List.  The idiots at the top would have thought that somehow she could deal with unprecedented psychological trauma on a massive scale.  She wondered how many people would be kept in bunkers, and how many therapists to a bunker.  She hoped she was not the only one here.  Sally felt an urgent need to find a colleague, as the panic began to rise in her throat.  She did not want to have to deal with other people’s trauma right now.  She would have enough of her own.  True, she had few personal losses to face, unlike some people here she supposed.  She had one younger brother somewhere, she knew not where.  He had been a talented runner at the age of 11 when their parents split up acrimoniously.  He had gone to live with his Dad, and Sally had taken her mother’s side against the two of them, angrily rejecting her little brother for wanting his misogynistic father’s love, not realising at the tender age of 14 that this would mean she never saw him again.  Sally never knew what happened to her father.  She had watched, helplessly just 18 months ago as first her mother, then her own lover died of cancer within two weeks of each other, and then while still in the grip of grief she had watched her brother win Olympic gold on her tiny TV, with a mixture of pride and regret, tears streaming down her face.

Sally visibly pulled herself upright on her stool.  At least she had never been able to have children, and so now did not have to face the unthinkable pain of leaving them behind, or coping with their boredom and then horror in this underground bunker, for months or maybe years.  Still, she wished she had someone here, with her.  Maybe her old Professor would turn up.  He was always in the news, and so was bound to wangle a place in one of the bunkers.  She had always fancied him, and this time he would be unlikely to refuse her.  Desperate times, she knew, made people behave in ways that under different circumstances would be taboo.

She looked towards the door, where a tall, athletic man was being shown in.  Then her heart missed a beat as she recognised Miles, older than when she had last seen him in the flesh but with the same brown eyes and shock of blond hair falling over his face.  He pushed it back with a characteristic casual gesture as he stood, scanning the room.  Then his eyes fell on her, and his face broadened into a smile as he walked confidently towards her.  Sally’s own legs turned to jelly as he greeted her with a peck on one cheek, then the other.  ‘Sals,’ he murmured into her hear.  Then, pulling away, he looked straight into her eyes, piercing her very being.  ‘I’ve missed you.  Looks like we will be seeing a fair bit of each other for a while.  Can you bear it?’  Sally wanted to shout ‘No, I can’t bear it.  A mile wide asteroid is about to hit Britain and the world as we know it is about to end!’ But instead, she remembered what she had read in some trashy women’s magazine and, hoping she had got it right she turned to the barman and said ‘Bourbon and soda on the rocks for the gentleman please, Frank.’  Then she turned back to meet the eyes of her little brother.